Wish I could say

i wisely used time

maybe I did

in the pit of despair

wallowing there

i’m still here

even though i prayed

for the end

instead another beginning

not a chapter

a short story

staring at faces

angry voices

hearing them again

now

hearing my voice

i choose my life

free from ghosts

free from regrets

free from eternal what ifs

or should haves

ready for now

looking ahead

no expectation

what i need here

just got to let it be

enough

https://dictionary.cambridge.org/dictionary/english/isolation

isolation noun[ U ] UK  /ˌaɪ.səlˈeɪ.ʃən/ US  /ˌaɪ.səlˈeɪ.ʃən/ C1the condition of being alone, especially when this makes you feel unhappy:The prisoner had been kept in isolation for three days.After all the visitors had left, she experienced a feeling of complete isolation. C2 the fact that something is separate and not connected to other things:I can’t think about it in isolation (= separately) – I need some examples of the problem.

Essential Meaning of isolation1: the state of being in a place or situation that is separate from others : the condition of being isolated – the isolation of the mountain community political and economic isolationa feeling of isolation [=loneliness]2: the act of separating something from other things : the act of isolating something isolation of the gene/virus

https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/isolation#synonyms

SOLITUDE, ISOLATION, SECLUSION mean the state of one who is alone. SOLITUDE may imply a condition of being apart from all human beings or of being cut off by wish or circumstances from one’s usual associates.  a few quiet hours of solitude  ISOLATION stresses detachment from others often involuntarily.  the isolation of the village in winter  SECLUSION suggests a shutting away or keeping apart from others often connoting deliberate withdrawal from the world or retirement to a quiet life.  lived in pastoral seclusion